Tips Temuduga By Athirah Zainul

A moment of silence untuk tajuk post yang sangat poyo .

Well readers , note that what I’m about to share here is more to my personal experience and stories . So if you’re hoping to find something that is very straight to the point , I’d say it is best for us to end our relationship here .

Gituuu .

So I’ve been to 3 interviews so far .

The first one is the interview for MARA sponsorship programme . I’ve applied for Health Science with intention to pursue speech pathology abroad . Its foundation programme is IB programme (International Baccaleurate) at Kolej Mara Seremban and kalau lepas pointer I get to choose to go to UK or US , if I’m not mistaken .

I’ve wrote about this interview previously in this blog but I’m gonna extract the main points here .

So for this iv , ada online psychometric test which will be carried out a few days earlier . You can google it yourself to for more details sebab all psychometric test lebih kurang sama . You will have to answer questions to test on your IQ , personality , general knowledge and a few about MARA itself .

It’s not gonna be easy that it’s not that hard .

So jangan takut but instead prepare well for it .

After the online test , here comes the real deal .

The good news is it is not a one-to-one interview and the bad news is taktahulah time uolls interview format cemana . Haha

Just read it anyways .

So first of all , of course , you will be asked to make a short intro about yourself .

Then the interviewers gave us a series of situations and we were asked to give our opinions about it .

Ada satu soalan tu lebih kurang macam ni lah ..

“.. lets say it is made compulsory for the students under this programme to hafaz (memorize ) the Quran in order to qualify them to study abroad apart from having good pointers . What do you think ?”

You have to be realistic .

IB programme itself is not a joke .

And to hafaz the Quran in just two years time . Say what ..

Answer honestly , brilliantly .

Jangan jadi fake .

"im okay with it"

"you’re okay with it ? "the interviewers asked in disbelief .

Just because MARA said so ? No people . Jangan jadi pengampu .

There’s nothing wrong in saying out your opinions but in a proper way of course

A few in my groups voice out their worries about this matter .

They said that it is a good thing but its not an easy task to hafaz the whole Quran in a very short time , what’s more we are in the IB programme . Most of us may not be able to make it to fly .

I agreed with them and suggest that instead of memorizing the whole Quran , why not emphasis more on the teachings in it .

Help students to create the akhlak of the Quran within them .

And maybe memorize a portion of it as to fulfill the requirements to fly abroad .

Since its good to memorize the Quran , why not make it one of the requirements to graduate because we would have much more time to memorize the Quran , which is up to 5 years , and of course with a better quality hafazan .

Actually there’s no right or wrong in this kind of interviews .

I supposed the interviewers are more interested to see how you deal with certain situations , how you tackle problems and of course your manners in group discussions .

Jangan nak menyerlah sorang-sorang .

Apalagi nak condemn others in the group .

Not long after , the iv results were out .

And guess what ?

Tahniah ! Permohonan Anda Berjaya !!

Alhamdulillah J

But for some personal reasons , I had to decline the offer  .

Kind of regretting my decisions right now but yeah Allah surely have a better plan for me inshaAllah .

For your information , I applied speech pathology for my undergraduate studies so the next two interviews would be mainly about this course . Im afraid I cant help you much if you’re searching for “tips temuduga perubatan” or what-so-ever . Love yah :*

So here we go .

My second interview would be the one I had in USM Kubang Kerian for Speech Pathology course

I was interviewed by 3 panels consisting of the Head of Audiology programme , A Speech Pathology lecturer and an ENT surgeon .

And again it was not a one-to-one interview .

It was a group of 4 , a much smaller group than the one I had earlier .

So since speech pathology and audiology were somehow related , the interview for these two courses were conducted in one go , two of us were speech applicants while the other two were audio applicants .

We started off by introducing about ourselves , one after another .

So how is exactly the best way to introduce oneself ?

Click here and read all about it .

Gua dah kasi senang lu dengan link segala bagai , lu tinggal baca dan execute. Jangan malas .

Next , interviewers tanya kenapa pilih kos itu .

So obviously , you need to have a good knowledge about that course . Well at least bacalah speech pathologist tu kerja dia apa , buat apa . Search pasal subjects list untuk course ni would be a good idea too .

Kalau ada personal stories yang related boleh cerita briefly . Contohnya , ada family members yang ada speech problems . So rasa motivated nak ceburi bidang ni and tolong orang kurang upaya macam tu . Tell them what you hope to achieve in this field , as such nak tolong motivate disables supaya tak give up . Nak tolong kanak-kanak improve their quality of life and etc .

Yang penting be honest .

Be true to yourself .

Jangan tipu .

Interviewer tu ada jugak tanya kenapa gua tak apply medic instead and I told him my reasons .

Then each one of us were asked to state our three main strength and weaknesses

Here’s some tips on how to tackle that questions .

Since I’ve also applied for speech pathology in UKM , I was asked which university would be my priority if I get both offers .

USM or UKM ?

Mak aii . The hardest question so far but I suggest you to answer it honestly okay?

Gua jawab apa ? Hoho biarlah rahsia .

Then , we were each given a situation to solve .

Something related to our courses .

As such , interviewer tu tanya gua ..

".. katakanlah Athirah ialah seorang sukarelawan di rumah orang tua-tua . Dan ada seorang warga emas ini tak boleh bercakap dan dia cuba cakap/minta sesuatu . Bagaimana Athirah handle situasi ini ?"

ada yang dapat pasal macam mana nak handle patient hyperactive , nak approach kids yang suka menyendiri and nak buat apa if ada patient kanak-kanak yang menangis as soon as dia nampak muka kita .

interviewer itu ada explain jugak sikit-sikit pasal what actually need to be done after kita bagi jawapan . Sebagai contoh , interviewer ada cakap bahawa its normal for kids to cry sebab mereka masih belum terbiasa dengan stranger . But when they’ve reached certain age point , they would be okay . Its not that they cried because your face was so terrifying or such .

The one thing I love about this iv is that I got so many valuable advices about my course and my future job prospect from the interviewers itself .

So to summarize the questions asked in my second iv ..

1.     Introduce yourself

2.     Why did you choose this course?

3.     What is your main strength and weaknesses ?

4.     USM or other universities ? / Why USM ?

5.     Problems solving (bahasa Melayu)

6.     Anything else you wanted to ask us ?

And yeah , this interview was conducted both in English and Malay , depending on the interviewer .

It is very important for you to have a good command in both languages okay ? It enables you to express yourself well and impress the interviewers .

So then after that 30 minutes iv , ada hearing test and speech screening .

To ensure that you yourselves takda kekurangan upaya dari segi pendengaran dan pertuturan . You want to help people with such disabilities right ? Kenalah make sure you have a normal speech and hearing condition .

The screening were carried out by senior students in the course itself which is obviously cool gila for me.

The interview result will be released on 11^th August 2015 .

I honestly didnt hope much for this iv since there will only be 10 applicants selected out of 73 applications

So yeah hahahaha ada rezeki ada lah kan ? huhu

Anddd last but not least , my interview for Speech Science programme in UKM .

Paling simple paling laju .

Cakap cakap then you’re done .

I was in a group of three people .

And to cut it short .

1.     Perkenalkan diri anda dan apakah kursus yang anda mohon ?

2.     Kenapa anda memohon untuk kursus ini ?

3.     Tell us about your co-curricular involvements .

4.     Problem Solving .

Tadaaaaaa dah boleh balik . Like seriously . 10 minit ja . That’s it . The end .

And there goes my interview stories .

Im sorry if I didn’t help you much .

But kesah apa gua .

HAHAHA

Okay me gurau gurau ja . I really hope by reading this blog post , you will have some idea on how your interview would likely be and thus make some necessary preparations for it .

Draft out your answers and practice it.

Prepare all the necessary documents needed for the interview and compile all of your certificates neatly in a clear holder file to give it a dash of the professional look.

Dress appropriately and formally . Elakkan baju batik .

Speak confidently but mind your manners.

You have to realize the fact that your good grades will only enables you to make it to an interview but the thing that will help you make it through the interview is your ability to impress the interviewers .

And there’s no second chance to make a good first impression .

Prepare well . Pray hard . And leave the rest to Allah .

May the force be with you .

Goodluck dearest !!

Mainan

Alhamdulillah I survived my asasi life and now back to that goyang-kaki-sampai-tercabut life for 5 months before pursuing my degree program end of this year if Allah wills *sorak sorak*

Haihh that was fast

*Put on earphones*

*scroll phone*

jim croce – time in a bottle

*play music*

I’m nineteen y/o this year you know .

And the next time you see me I might be in my twenties .

My oh my just see how fast time flies .

Hidup sembilan belas tahun rasa macam tak sampai sehari .

Life time kat asasi tak payah kata la .

Pejam celik ja rasa .

Bukan apa , it hits me hard .

Thinking about life in this world .

Hmm throwback jom ? hahah .

CHAPTER ONE : TADIKA

Masa gua umur 4 tahun mak gua tak hantar gua gi tadika . Nak home school katanya . Cikgunya tak lain dan tak bukan mak gua yang ohsem . lulz

Sampailah umur 6 tahun baru dihantar ke tadika . Mak takut gua jadi perak jumpa orang time sekolah rendah . Jadi aku dihantar agar mampu bergaul dengan orang luar .

Tadika aku dulu Tadika Pasti An Najjah .

Belajar arab gituu .

Hahah k .

Tadika tak jauh pun dari rumah . Tadika tu tumpang surau area jemaah muslimat . So it is a surau merangkap tadika or vice versa . Sekarang tadika tu dah berpindah tempat . Dah ada taman permainan sendiri woo.

Untunglah dik non . Dulu akak main cendawan liar yang tumbuh kat almari surau je . Acah acah young explorer gitu discover cendawan .

Hahah .

Hmmm time tadika dulu aku aktif sikit .

Pertandingan bercerita .

I just cant believe my self-confidence back in those days .

Selambar rock je bercerita depan penonton berjuta (bukan jumlah sebenar)

But seriously , entah kenapalah konfiden melebih .

Doa and constant support from mama abah I supposed?

Hashtag juara bertahan

Pertandingan nasyid .

Part yang kena paksa minum air asam jawa bagi suara sedap tu takleh tahan .

Gua masih anak kecil bukk!!

Hashtag Ada Part Solo Sendiri

Pertandingan mewarna .

Kalah sebab tak warna awan .

Pakcik tu kata ini dikategori sebagai tak siap mewarna .

Hmm but pakcik .. awan warna putih .. kan ?

Hashtag Takleh Move On Dari Kekalahan

Ada satu hari tu ustazah gua gering or dalam bahasa rakyat beliau sakit .Tak sure lah sakit or ada hal but yang pasti takleh datang mengajar . Baru nak seronok yeay yeay kelas cancel sekali ada cikgu ganti masuk kelas .

“Bangunnn semuaaa”

“Assalamualaikum …. mak ?”

yeah mak gua jadi cikgu ganti

hashtag awkward

CHAPTER TWO : SEKOLAH RENDAH

Next is sekolah rendah .

Sk St Anne’s Convent , Kulim .

From tadika arab to all girls school .

Yeah I know .

-Darjah satu-

Mom said I was a brave girl . First day pi sekolah sorang-sorang . But mom and kakak came afterwards to check on my condition . Hahah gelabah depa cari gua dalam kelas tapi tak jumpa . Hampir nak nangis risau . Cari gua merata . And me ? Selamber badak belajar kat kelas sebelah . Hashtag salah masuk kelas . Blame that old class label yang masih tak ditukar walaupun lokasi kelas dah dirombak .

Gua dah penat penat berebut tempat .  Kemas kemas and settle down . Kenal-kenal dengan kawan baru and after all of those hard work now they wanna say im in the wrong class .

Sedih auww .

-Darjah dua-

‘’Bangunnnn semuaaaaaaaa..’’

I summoned my fellow classmates from the dead .

‘’Se-la-mat-pa-gi-cik-gu’’

and my classmates repeat after me as if they were my echos .

itulah rutin gua dari darjah satu .

ketua kelas lah katakan . Lulz

gua jadi perhatian akak akak senior sebab gua bam bam dan tersangat comel :P

and gua juga jadi perhatian ramai cikgu sebab gua adik fauziani .

Yeah fauziani@yani tu kakak gua , dulu sekolah sini .

Dak Dak Top Scorer . Ketua Pengawas . Teacher’s pet .

Blame my sister . Siapa suruh mai sekolah jenguk gua .

Then all the teachers be like …

Eh athirah ni adik kamu ke fauzianiii !!!

Ni la adik fauziani .

Awak ni adik fauziani kan ?

Oh fauziani tu kakak kamu ?

See . Your fault that im now famous .

Hashtag tumpang populariti

-Darjah tiga-

There’s nothing much .

Cuma baju putih bertukar biru

Dan sudah ada tugas baru :)

“Hey jangan bising kalau tak aku tulis nama hang!!”

Nama orang yang bersembang@bising

1.

2.

3.

Siapa-siapa yang menunjukkan tanda-tanda keinsafan gua potong lah nama but those yang bebal semacam suka bersembang tak reti nak diam orang teguq dia jelling jelling siap cabar tulislah tulislah nama aku memang gua highlight nama dia warna merah letak kat meja cikgu .

Hashtag gila kuasa.

-Darjah empat-

Start dari tahun ni dan onwards dah mula dapat 3A 2B .

Paper penulisan dan pemahaman .

Gua memang lemah dalam subjek Bahasa Melayu .

Blame it on my Canadian grandparents .

Hashtag takleh blah

-Darjah lima-

Terpilih untuk jadi wakil sekolah dalam kuiz kesihatan with my geng Fatin Nurshuhada , Shasha Najla and See Sher Mynn .

Memang gua minat gila sains and things related to health .

No doubt . Passionate gila when it comes to that stuff .

And cita-cita gua nak jadi neurosurgeon .

Cita-cita gua masa tu lah .

Now apply medic pun tak .

hew hew .

-Darjah Enam-

Tahun ni kuiz kesihatan berjaya sampai peringkat kebangsaan .

Tak menang lah tapi . Saguhati ja but Alhamdulillah anyway :)

Tahun ni gua jadi ketua pengawas .

Macam kakak gua dulu .

Tahun ni gua UPSR .

But result memanjang 4A 1B .

Tak macam kakak gua dulu .

Masih tak mampu menawan paper penulisan . Lantas , kakak gua pun turun padang untuk membantu . Segala ilmu dicurah . Segala tips dikongsi .

Gua tak pi tuition . Takdak transport so susah sikit . Kakak gua pun sibuk dengan study dia . Payah sikit la .

Budak-budak lain untung . Ada cikgu tuition . Tak paham apa boleh tanya . Dapat latihan tambahan lagi . But hah kesah pulak gua .

Yang penting ada azam dan usaha untuk berubah dan maju then Allah will surely helps . Yang kau rasa impossible pun boleh jadi possible .

Gua praktikkan apa yang kakak and cikgu gua ajar . Little by little I showed improvement in my result . Then gua dapat catch momentum gua dalam penulisan and bammmmm .

Alhamdulillah :)

CHAPTER 3 : SEKOLAH MENENGAH

Hah malas nak cerita panjang sebab more or less like your high school experience jugak .

Perhimpunan Mingguan . Perhimpunan Harian . Kelas . Homework . Kelas tambahan . Hari koko . Stayback . Hari Sukan . Latihan rumah sukan . Sukantara . Sukaneka . Kawad Kaki . Segala Macam Pertandingan . Bulan Bahasa . Kempen . Gotong Royong . Exams . Results . Prefect's Daily Routine . Record nama students mai lambat . Hari Anugerah Cemerlang . Tunggu van dengan kengkawan tepi sekolah . Hujan panas . Study study study . Demam . Kebah . Kerja kursus . Study . Ujian lisan . Study Study study . And PMR . And SPM . And dah im done with school .

Within that 5 years , i literally repeat all of the above .
Except for that PMR and SPM part , obviously .

But the best out of all is friends . You know what ? This is the phase in your life where you can find true friends . Maybe this doesn't apply to most people but for me it does . Here , I've met awesome people or should i say true friends . Friends that are always there for you . In your Ups and Down . Gaduh ka apa ka , we tend to forgive each other and move on , together .

And even after school has ended , the friendship never ends .

Thanks kawan :)

CHAPTER 4 : ASASI

9 months .

Within that 9 months , i surely have learnt a lot .

As I've said before , time sekolah menengah tu 5 tahun mengadap benda yang sama .
So tak berapa nak berkembang minda . Macam katak bawah tempurung ? Yeah sikit sikit .

But now masuk asasi suasana dah lain . Jumpa orang dari serata negeri .
Kalau dulu hang balun cakap kedah slang kokdiang pun boleh paham siap gelak mengakaq dengan kawan lani hang kena cakap bahasa melayu ala ala subtitle tv .

Lebih universal gitu .

To those that landed on this blogpost from search engine , hai :)
And i just wanna say Alhamdulillah asasi palam ni okay.

Rumah ? Satu rumah 8 orang and ada 4 bilik which means 2 person per room . Selesa alhamdulillah . Dapat housemate awesome awesome belaka but it depends la . Orang ni macam2 ragam. Pandai-pandai la kau adapt ye dik . Doa bebanyak bagi elok semuanya .

Makan ? Mmg senang nak cari makan sini . Teringin cempedak goreng pun ada . Coolblog takyah kata la . Cuma pandai-pandai la kau bajet duit :)

Kelas ? Lecture hall awesome . Selesa . Nak pi kelas pun senang . Cuma part naik turun tangga palam tu yang macam krik krik sikit . But yeah . Alah bisa tegal biasa . Kalau siapa yang tiap tiap hari mengadap tangga tu lama-lama rasa macam takdak apa lah . Gua paling laju boleh naik tangga tu 2 minit lebih cemtu kot . Hashtag takabur .

Gua nak pesan . Masuk asasi ni belajaq elok-elok .
Solat jaga . Akhlak jaga .

Belajar niat ikhlas untuk Allah . InshaAllah mudah .

Takyah la nak crush ka couple ka sebab you know asasi ni fast track .
2 semester 9 bulan . Mana nak focus study lagi nak hadam topik baru every week nak pikir bajet duit lagi nak buat lab report nak study test nak quiz nak exam nak layan perasaan lagi ni tak menang tangan oiii .

Takyah ah main couple couple .
Nak couple lagi baik masuk minang teruih . Lulz
Nak bercinta , lepas nikah la. Now focus benda yang lagi penting dalam hidup .

Okay ? Bereh .

Normal lah suka suka kat orang . Hashtag hew hew .
But seriously , if possible watlek watpis sudah perasaan tu .
9 bulan dek non . Lepas tu habis asasi . Susah nak jumpa dah :(

So lupakan je lah crush kau tu .

"Hang cakap ni macam dari pengalaman ja ."

Senyap ah .

''Cece ada lettew''

Wat-e-vah .

CHAPTER 5 : ?

the future is always a mystery .

and that is why I'm worried .

bukan dunia yang aku risaukan .

kerana dunia is penuh dengan kejutan , plot twist .

yang kau tak jangka boleh terjadi depan mata 

yang kau jangka hilang entah ke mana

"sesungguhnya kita merancang dan Allah juga merancang"

pesan arwah abah bila anak-anaknya mula risau akan perihal dunia .

bukan tidak mahu mengejar kejayaan dunia ,

tetapi kejar biar berpada .

kita usaha semampu mungkin ,

bersungguh dalam apa jua perkara ,

baik dalam pelajaran mahupun kerjaya.

tetapi setelah itu berserahlah kepada Sang Pencipta .

doalah agar diberikan yang terbaik dan dijauhkan dari segala yang buruk .

sesungguhnya lebih baiklah perancangan yang Tuhanmu ada buatmu .

kerna Tuhanmu itulah yang Maha Mengetahui lagi Maha Bijaksana .

gua tak mampu nak karang apapun untuk chapter ini .

sebab gua tak tahu masa depan gua .

mungkin hidup gua berjalan seperti kitaran hidup yang biasa (as expected)

atau mungkin nyawa gua akan dicabut bila bila masa (the unexpected)

the unexpected ini yang gua risau .

bayangkan kita tengah sibuk dengan hal-hal keduniaan ,

stress itu stress ini .

and then bamm time's up .

malaikat maut menyapa dan kau terpaksa meninggalkan dunia .

menuju ke alam yang menjadi persimpangan antara dunia dan akhirat .

begitu sahaja .

kau seorang 

ditemani amal

di alam sana 

dah ready ? 

tujuan gua menulis ni nak mengingatkan kepada diri dan kepada pembaca

betapa hidup di dunia ini hanya mainan dan hiburan yang bersifat sementara 

scroll balik apa yang gua tulis kat atas tu 

dari tadika sampai chapter 5

bertahun tahun hidup gua atas dunia 

dalam satu blog post ja gua ringkaskan

MashaAllah .

wahai kesayangan gua semua ,

Gua bukan nak halang dari mengejar kehidupan dunia .

tetapi gua nak halang diri dan halang semua dari mengejar keduniaan SEMATA-MATA

sebagai umat Islam kita perlu synchronize kan hidup dunia dan akhirat

gunakan dunia untuk kebaikan akhirat .

okay geng ?

Ya Allah , please make our life in this world a life that you're pleased with

Ya Allah , please give us barakah in our life and grants us husnol khotimah

Ya Allah , please make us among those who gain success in this world and hereafter 

Indeed , we are the wrong-doers

and you are the Most Merciful and the Most Forgiving 

help us Ya Allah 

La Hawla Wala Quwwata Ila Billah

(there is no power and strength except with Allah)

amin

till we meet again 

inshaAllah 

The One Who Listens

 

Its funny how people expect you to talk

when they dont even have the intention to listen

Its even funnier when they claimed that they understand

when they dont but actually only managed to come up with their own assumptions

judgements and conclusions 

to make your words connect to each other

making it easier for them to digest

you tell em stories

your story your problems

you let it out you let it go

some's a good listener but some not even close to being one

but yet they sit beside you and listen

you tell them your story your problems

some might understand but some might not 

but they pretend that they understand

indeed having someone to share your problems with

is like drinking plain water when you are so damn thirsty

its like carrying a 100kg of weight on your back

and half of it were lifted away

its like you're drowning in the middle of the ocean

and you then saw a fisherman's boat approaching

whether that particular individual understands your story

or not

it doesnt matter really

but its gonna feel like

drinking plain water when you are so damn thirsty

but the water turns out to be polluted and is full of transparent sand particles

like carrying a 100kg of weight on your back

and another 100 kilos were dumped on you

like drowning in the middle of the ocean

and you saw the cumulonimbus clouds rolling in

when that person

that particular individual

listens

''understands''

and they started to judge you

blames you and listed out all of your mistakes

saying out loud the ugly truth

that you wish they wouldnt say but rather keep it to themselves

and you end up

hating your self even more

i gave up

on what

on human

 because i found a better way

to tell your stories and your problems

without being judged

although it is true that its your fault at the first place

its the wrong decision youve made 

that get you in such troubles

but yeah

finally you can let it out

admit your mistakes

accept your flaws

and be determined to fix everything

improve yourself

make things better again

and thats my friend

you can get by telling all of your problems to Allah

indeed He listens

even when you aint saying things out loud

and He understands

more than you understand yourself

He knows you make mistakes

and yet He forgives you

when you beg for His Mercy

He can help you find a way out

if you pray for His help

He can help you calm down

and regain your strength

Thank You Allah

for being there for me

Make me among those whose heart always in a constant remembrance of You

Make me among those you are pleased with

And make us among those

who loves You

more than anything else

-az-

Hang takpala Hang pandai

They think I'm that brilliant kid

who needs no hardwork

to score good scores

They think I'm that brilliant kid

who needs no struggle

to get to where I am now

They think I'm that brilliant 

  [Laugh]

Don't they realize

The way they say things

As if they were saying

That a bird needs no flapping wings

to fly up high in the sky

That a fish needs no moving fins

to swim deeper into the sea

That a worm needs no working muscles

to dig through the hard soil

Don't they know

I too have to go through hardships

I too have my own darkest hours

There's one time

I completely blurred out

Nothing in the lectures seems 

to be something that I understood

I ask around

I read through the lecture notes

again and again

again and again too

I end up crying the whole night

disappointed with my own self

for not being able to understand

what others can simply understood

I almost give up

I almost pick up that phone

and say 'mom I can't do this'

But every time my mom asks

'How was thing goin'

.Yeah everything is fine.

.Still adapting.

.But I'm good.

 [hang up]

This lasted for several weeks

WEEKS I tell yah

And I almost believe that I'm an idiot

I feel useless

I feel helpless

I feel hopeless

I taught these feelings were endless

but I was wrong because

It was wrong to say that it will keep on raining once it started raining

What begins will soon ends

and what has ended will soon has 

a new beginning

You just Have To Wait

with sabr

I've waited and

i found the ending to my sorrow

once I turn back to the One and Only,

Allah

the one who can give whatever you want 

and takes away whatever you have

The one who hears you

when no one else care to listen

The one who understands you

more than you understand yourself

the one behinds your sorrow

the reason for your happiness

'Indeed Allah is sufficient for us'

yes Allah alone is enough for me

so I pray for strength

and I get back on track

So they think I'm that brilliant huh?

Indeed I'm no one without Allah

So

Instead of saying to others

'Hang takpala hang pandai'

(Good for you that you're brilliant)

What about saying

'Takpa aku ada Allah'

(Everything's good cause I have Allah)

to yourself

My Journey [part one]

i pray to Allah to bring me to place where i can learn more , become a better person .

Increased in faith and knowledge .

increased in my love for Him and His Prophet p.b.u.h .

because i came to realized that 

studying at a good place not necessarily build a better you

it might what our hearts desire for

but it is not what we actually need 

i got an offer to go for the UM interview 

i got an offer to study abroad under MARA

and i got an offer from UITM Puncak Alam 

for my foundation study

i pray i sit and i think

list out all the pros and conts for each of these options i have

i pray i sit and i think 

i cancelled out one which is the UM interview

i pray i sit and i think

Studying abroad or asasi in Puncak Alam

hardest decision so far

my heart inclined more to Puncak Alam 

i don't know why 

it just did

but i know deep inside

Allah is answering my prayers

Many people objected

Many people questioned 

Many people asked me to think about it again

Some says its a good choice 

for they think i will not be able to handle life alone abroad

they say that I'm not like my sister 

i hate people who judges me before knowing

what am i really capable of doing

and the comparison they made

between me and my sister

makes my heart burn 

burn to ashes

i might be the youngest child in the family 

but that doesn't make me a wimp

i can handle my life inshaAllah

abroad or local

i can

i was about to take up the challenge

and choose the MARA offer

for i want to show them

that i can do it

but i stopped

i pray i sit i think

finally i heard a soft whisper 

theres no need to please the people

theres no need to gamble your future just to fulfill the vessel with holes

where you pour in water

and the vessel stays empty

i know my strength and weaknesses

i know the fact that i might not be able to survive MARA 

the foundation program is too hard for me

and I'm afraid i can't fly 

Say I'm weak

Say I'm a coward

i don't care

because i know i'll grow stronger

i'll get braver

i just need a perfect kick start

with bismillah i declined the MARA offer

and choose puncak alam instead

my family has no problem with my choice

they respect my opinions and my stands

they even support me

alhamdulillah

then i pray again

i pray for Allah to make this path the best one for me

regardless what people say

regardless what people think

I've made my decision

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