Its funny how people expect you to talk
when they dont even have the intention to listen
Its even funnier when they claimed that they understand
when they dont but actually only managed to come up with their own assumptions
judgements and conclusions
to make your words connect to each other
making it easier for them to digest
you tell em stories
your story your problems
you let it out you let it go
some's a good listener but some not even close to being one
but yet they sit beside you and listen
you tell them your story your problems
some might understand but some might not
but they pretend that they understand
indeed having someone to share your problems with
is like drinking plain water when you are so damn thirsty
its like carrying a 100kg of weight on your back
and half of it were lifted away
its like you're drowning in the middle of the ocean
and you then saw a fisherman's boat approaching
whether that particular individual understands your story
or not
it doesnt matter really
but its gonna feel like
drinking plain water when you are so damn thirsty
but the water turns out to be polluted and is full of transparent sand particles
like carrying a 100kg of weight on your back
and another 100 kilos were dumped on you
like drowning in the middle of the ocean
and you saw the cumulonimbus clouds rolling in
when that person
that particular individual
listens
''understands''
and they started to judge you
blames you and listed out all of your mistakes
saying out loud the ugly truth
that you wish they wouldnt say but rather keep it to themselves
and you end up
hating your self even more
i gave up
on what
on human
because i found a better way
to tell your stories and your problems
without being judged
although it is true that its your fault at the first place
its the wrong decision youve made
that get you in such troubles
but yeah
finally you can let it out
admit your mistakes
accept your flaws
and be determined to fix everything
improve yourself
make things better again
and thats my friend
you can get by telling all of your problems to Allah
indeed He listens
even when you aint saying things out loud
and He understands
more than you understand yourself
He knows you make mistakes
and yet He forgives you
when you beg for His Mercy
He can help you find a way out
if you pray for His help
He can help you calm down
and regain your strength
Thank You Allah
for being there for me
Make me among those whose heart always in a constant remembrance of You
Make me among those you are pleased with
And make us among those
who loves You
more than anything else
-az-
