My Journey [part one]

i pray to Allah to bring me to place where i can learn more , become a better person .

Increased in faith and knowledge .

increased in my love for Him and His Prophet p.b.u.h .

because i came to realized that 

studying at a good place not necessarily build a better you

it might what our hearts desire for

but it is not what we actually need 

i got an offer to go for the UM interview 

i got an offer to study abroad under MARA

and i got an offer from UITM Puncak Alam 

for my foundation study

i pray i sit and i think

list out all the pros and conts for each of these options i have

i pray i sit and i think 

i cancelled out one which is the UM interview

i pray i sit and i think

Studying abroad or asasi in Puncak Alam

hardest decision so far

my heart inclined more to Puncak Alam 

i don't know why 

it just did

but i know deep inside

Allah is answering my prayers

Many people objected

Many people questioned 

Many people asked me to think about it again

Some says its a good choice 

for they think i will not be able to handle life alone abroad

they say that I'm not like my sister 

i hate people who judges me before knowing

what am i really capable of doing

and the comparison they made

between me and my sister

makes my heart burn 

burn to ashes

i might be the youngest child in the family 

but that doesn't make me a wimp

i can handle my life inshaAllah

abroad or local

i can

i was about to take up the challenge

and choose the MARA offer

for i want to show them

that i can do it

but i stopped

i pray i sit i think

finally i heard a soft whisper 

theres no need to please the people

theres no need to gamble your future just to fulfill the vessel with holes

where you pour in water

and the vessel stays empty

i know my strength and weaknesses

i know the fact that i might not be able to survive MARA 

the foundation program is too hard for me

and I'm afraid i can't fly 

Say I'm weak

Say I'm a coward

i don't care

because i know i'll grow stronger

i'll get braver

i just need a perfect kick start

with bismillah i declined the MARA offer

and choose puncak alam instead

my family has no problem with my choice

they respect my opinions and my stands

they even support me

alhamdulillah

then i pray again

i pray for Allah to make this path the best one for me

regardless what people say

regardless what people think

I've made my decision

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