It is very bitter when your parents start comparing you with other people or with your almost-too-perfect siblings .
It is indeed so hard when your presence seems to bring no change to the crowd ,
and no one is actually listening to the words you said .
People might say that you are just being emotional . They say that there's nothing wrong , everything is normal , you are just over thinking and bla bla bla .
But they never knew . They never felt what you are feeling at the moment .
They think that nothing has changed . Everything is still the same . It is you who changed .
and the blame comes back to you .
And now you started to agree with them and join the forces to go against yourself .
You keep asking yourself why can't you be like other people ; enjoying their life to the max , being able to fit in perfectly in the crowd , appear gorgeous in every random dress .
You tried so hard to imitate them but you never succeed . It is always so awkward ; because you are not being yourself .
You totally hate yourself now, don't you ?
if you are feeling all of these shits then stay tuned to my next post .
but first listen to this . i hope it may cheer you up a lil bit before we start .