The Unnoticed Killer

It is normal for a human being like us to have desires and cravings . 

It makes a human Human .

But it is important to have a good control over your desires .

Because extreme desires do kill . That's the fact .

" Sara was having her morning coffee when her oceanic blue eyes got caught up with the ads published on the television . It is the latest product from Apple . The iPhone 5s - designed for the colorful. The ads was so captivating that Sara's body became so static in her seat , staring at the screen . Despite the stiffness of her body , her brain was somehow straining so hard ; recalculating her money and organizing her current financial . "I wanna be a billionaire so freaking bad" . Sara , shocked by the sudden ringing of her phone , quickly stood up and reached out for her vibrating iPhone 4 on the coffee table . It was Douglas the landlord , probably calling Sara to remind her about the-two-months-unpaid-house-rent . Being able to predict what Douglas would say , Sara declined the call . She let out a heavy sigh . As a fanatic fan of Apple products herself , the released of the latest iPhone is so unbearable especially after she had to ignore all the ads about iPhone 5 when it was first released due to her never-ending financial problems. She stared blankly at her iPhone 4 . "Maybe the time has come for me to trade in this phone for a new iPhone" . Sara finally made her decision after a long moment of silence . Her conscious mind tell her not to but her desire  is really good at convincing her naive heart . Sara then put on her trench coat , grabbed her handbag , reached out for her credit cards and off she went , walking anxiously under her transparent umbrella "

What do you think happen to Sara next ?

I don't precisely know about that , but i bet you .. it's gonna be Bad .

I wrote this short story just to give you all an overview about what is it like when your desires take control of yourself .

Your brain can no longer differentiate between what you really need and what you really want .

Your brain is now set to force yourself into buying everything that you LIKE without thinking about the consequences .

Absent-mindedly torturing yourself . 

Became extremely frustrated especially when you are unable to buy that 'everything'.

Take a moment to ask yourself .

Do you feel permanently contented after buying the things your desire forced you to ?

Do you think Sara is still having the same excited feeling of owning an iPhone 4 like when she first bought the phone ? 

If your answer is a 'no' then I assume that you understand the simple nature of a human .

Human like us can hardly feel permanently contented with something .

That is why some of us always in search of ways to improve our life .

a desire to get a better life .

We invent new technologies , machines and products .

Intensively generating brilliant ideas.

And that is one good way of using your desires .

My advice is .. 

Try to be grateful with what you already have in this life . I truly understand what is it like to see your friends buying wonderful stuffs for themselves , but if you are not capable of buying those things as well , do tell yourself that it is OKAY . Believe me that there's a lot of people out there who are hoping to live the life like yours . 

try to earn money on your own or start saving if you feel like buying something .

never burden others especially your parents just to fulfill your desires . 

And of course , you can always feel free to buy awesome things for yourself because sometimes it makes us feel better and stress-free 

but don't let yourself be killed by the unnoticed killer .

I end my piece with a psychotic smile . 

lol

Goodbye

Saying goodbye is indeed one of the hardest struggles in my life .

But I've said goodbye too many times before .

Too much of it until there's no struggle needed for me to say it again .

Because i came to realize that life is like an empty box .

As we live our life day by day , the empty box starts to fill itself . 

With memories . 

They are either sweet or bitter but still they fill the same box .

With people .

Parents , family , friends , crush and even strangers .

With our favourite things .

Books , clothes , toys and toothbrush maybe ?

Unconciously , we attach ourselves firmly to every and each of it . 

Thus making it harder for us to let it go .

But now i totally understand the whole concept .

In order to accept new things in life , i have to make some space inside the congested box .

Ready to let go of something . Starting with the things that i will not be needed the most .

The pain .

It somehow occupies the major portion of my box .

The one that gives an extra weight that makes my box extremely heavy .

But fortunately it is now gone . 

Giving me more space for maturity  and leaving only a tiny scratch inside the box as a reminder for me to not let the same pain comes into my box ever again . 

And now , with some space inside my box , i'm ready to move on from the  year of 2013 to the year of 2014 which will unfold itself in a matter of few days .

Sadly , moving on means more goodbye-s.

I have to say goodbye to my high school life . My high school teachers . My high school friends . 

And warmly welcome another new start in my life . 

a totally new surrounding . 

Like entering a new level after completing the previous one in a game .

There will be ..

New experiences . New people .

More challenges . More struggles . 

And of course , more memories occupying the box .

Surprisingly , i'm ready for all of it .

Eager to know what my box will look like in the future .

Better or worse ? 

Hoping for the best of course . 

InsyaAllah Allah will ease everything . 

InsyaAllah .

Even if you don't , i will always be 

Who is Ahmad Ammar ?

I was busy studying for the upcoming SPM when all the social networks on the internet were suddenly  flooded with the story of Ahmad Ammar .

Even my sister came home from work one evening and started to talk about Ahmad Ammar .

Unable to divert my mind to focus on other things except for my notes and reference books at that time , i didn't pay much attention to what she was saying .

But my brain managed to process some of the information given by my sister about Ahmad Ammar .

He was a student from Malaysia . Studying in Turkey . Died in an accident recently . The Turkish community really respect him to the max and he was buried in a special place , alongside the other 'Sahabat' like Abu Ayyub Al-Ansari .

And that's it .

I didn't ask much either .

And the story fade away from my mind as i focused my mind for the final exam .
Days passed and i barely remember Ahmad Ammar's name .

A few weeks after my final exam has ended , i once again came across the story of Ahmad Ammar shared by one of my friends on fb [jazakillahu khairan kathira Nurulain Farhana]

the post included a link to a video on youtube .

a simple link to a simple video .
a simple video that simply touched my heart .

I feel so blessed to have clicked that link at that time .
I feel so blessed that Allah had open my heart to know more about Ahmad Ammar .

Subhanallah . Alhamdulillah . Allahuakbar .

there is an english version for this video uploaded recently on youtube as well 

alhamdulillah

watch the video for yourself then only you will understand what i am trying to say earlier .

and now i knew his story .

Ahmad Ammar's story .

Simply brilliant . MashaAllah .

A true happy ending story . MashaAllah .

Oh Allah , please grants us all a good ending for this life  .

Oh Allah , please accepts our repentance and purify us from our sins . 

Oh Allah , please grants us happiness in this world and hereafter .

Please Ya Allah . Please .

Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin .

Al Fatihah to arwah Ahmad Ammar 

Criticism : Yeay or Nayy ?

Hello everyone !! So how's your day ?

Good ? Great ! No ?

Wait ? What ? Me ? ohh ..

So yeah i've been straining my brain lately to think of what i'm going to post on this blog next but yeah i fail to do so therefore i spent my days watching few Running Man episodes , indulged myself with online articles and of course scrolling my Facebook timeline up and down every now and then . But wait …

Okay back to the main topic …

THE EXTREME CRITIC

this topic emerged in my head after i came across a few oh wait no actually a lot of un-constructive and rude comments being posted online in response to the online articles or videos published all over the web .

if i were the owner of the articles or video(s) , i will probably ..

sobs sobs

How can you say something rude to people ? Condemning people brutally ? Criticize their actions their words their opinions and their look ? Bash Bash Bash !!

some even go mad and say "F*** you" "This is s***" 

like seriously ? 

You don't like that crap then go search the web for something else instead of being retarded-ly emotional over those things .

and by criticizing people online you just prove to the world that you are a total coward .

condemning others through your anonymous identity .

seeking attention .

pathetic.

OMG i am criticizing the online critic !! lol

THE ONE WHO ARE BEING CRITICIZED

seems impossible *sigh*

Fact : You Can't Avoid Criticism !! 

Criticism has become part of the society nowadays . Some even make money out of it (e.g food critic , movie critic , design critic )

so you have to deal with it like a boss !

Most of the people can't accept criticism well ..

*extremely offended by the critics*

and some be like  ..

whatever 

DEALING WITH IT

i don't know how to say it so let the picture speaks on my behalf 

perfect solution!

and last but not least …

no offense . love you . bye !

Feeling Useless : How to Deal With It ? (part 1)

I am neither a psychologist nor a mind reader nor a professional mentalist .

but i can assure you that pain does change people , inside out .

But the changes that took place differs in different individuals .

The pain that you felt may either turns you into a better person or turns you into a bitter person 

Heartless . Rude . Badass .

So now i let you choose your own path . 

If you want to be bitter , then go ahead . I am no one to stop you .

But if you are willing to give a shot in changing your life  then stay .

I can't guarantee a success by doing this , but what you gonna lose ?

First if you are feeling (or people keep saying) that you are useless…..
then do something useful with your life !!

Do random act of kindness . Smile to people . Help old grannies carry some groceries and bla bla bla .

or you can just help your mum with the housework . Avoid fights with your die-hard siblings .

ANYTHING. That is why it is called random .

Im not forcing you to drastically change yourself into a little miss angel but simply act of kindness might help you be a better person deep inside . And the best part is when the people around you started to see the good changes within you .

i recommend you to..

START AN EXERCISE ROUTINE AND BE HEALTHY !

By doing exercise consistently and getting yourself drench in sweat everyday , you'll feel better about yourself . Believe it or not , you'll be happier and your mind will be more positive than ever !! 

You will get a better control of yourself , your mind and your emotions . These will surely help you to block away all the negative thoughts that used to haunt you before and you will start to care less about the bad  things people say or happens because you yourself know how much you are improving now .

doubting my words ? try it for yourself . For beginners , try doing this for the first few days consistently . Goodluck !

Next ..

START A NEW HOBBY !!

grab a good book and indulge yourself !

books can help you to escape from the tiring reality sometimes , generate intense imagination and creativity inside your head and help you to relax and forget to be oppressed by people .

comforting isn't it ? (unless if you read yourself a book about ghost and psycho killer :P)

some people even said that ..

and this is why books manage to win my heart 

i guess that is the end of this post .

hope you can be a better person and feel good about yourself .

BE AWESOME . FORGET THE OPPRESSION . IMPROVE YOURSELF .

lots of love from me .

see you later !